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Really busy recently. School work, gakkai activities, …… Everyday reach home at 7+pm, then i got to have a quick dinner to rush for meeting at 8pm. Got back home after meeting already 10+, then bathe.. Settle down only at 11+pm. Really tired and hv no time for studies…This is just the beginning, I will be getting more busy soon with assignments, tutorials, tests, convocation meet, fespic opening ceremony, Acad M meetings, meetings………..

Though busy, but I know I have my comrades striving together. Life seems busy but valuables and meaningful…. Along the process, we all will grow to a better person together and create values in our life.

One of my housemate who just came back from Soka University in Japan shared with us guidance from Ikeda Sensei: 我们要有跨越难的决心，不被烦恼击倒，要成为勇敢的人；要努力求学，成为伟大的人；要累积福运，成为幸福的人。We may face a lot of problems along our path, but we must have the courage to face it and overcome it, then we will be the winner in life. One who is courageous is happy. True enough. Often, we have no confidence in challenging our problems because we are not courageous enough. Once we determine to strive, we are already the winner over the problem. Nothing is impossible…

With faith, we will definitely be able to transform our problems into happiness. 烦恼即菩提嘛。Let us strive together till the end. So, let’s join the fespic opening ceremony and contribute to the society… Let us once again create memorable history in our life…

I have an extremely bad luck today. First, I went out for UM bus for my 1st lecture today at 9.15am (the bus usually comes at 9.30). Waited for one and half an hour, breathing in all the dust, sand by the roadside( construction is taking place , imagine the air quality there. It’s 100 times worse then usual) When my lungs going to turn black, the bus at last reached there. I late for the lecture for about one hour. When go into the hall, lecturer told the whole class that I was "smart" to sleep outside for one hour, then only come in for the second half of the lecture. I was so embarassed and speechless at that moment…

At 3pm, i can go back home to have a good rest. But again, i missed the bus. The bus jt went off 1,2 minutes before i reach there. I’m terrified to experience the "waiting " again. I decided to walk out from UM campus and take public transport. Again, I waited for one hour… Breathing in all the "air nutrients" (higher dose this time) for another one hour… I guess my lung already turn into black…

All the buses seem to bully me today. I was really frustrated and sad. I tried so hard to control myself from dropping into lower state of life and defeated by the environment. But my tears of sadness/frustration/depression…… are out of my control…. At last, I troubled Ke Wei to purposely drive to UM to fetch me back. Luckily, his kindness bring back my smile and comfort my heart… And I was back to my house safely and writing this blog now.

You may think that this is not a big pbl at all, what’s the matter?? But if you were me, you will feel the same as i felt…

Always we hear ppl say, girls are difficult to understand. I do agree that but I feel that i should add more to tht statement: girls and guys are equally difficult to understand.

Girls are famous of their emotional behaviour, but i do come across guys who are also emotional. Guys can also be easily irritated actually. Sometimes, I just don’t really understand why guys are so emotional. When they are not in the mood in that second, you will be shocked by their attitude without knowing what is really going on. Because they will not giving you a chance to ask why once it happens. Although after calm them down and talk to them nicely to sort things out, we still fail…. I wonder the factor is my poor elaboration? Or they have comprehension problem… Consequently, the mystery will be forever there.

Girls’ behaviour will never be understood, this is true enough since girls are shaped this way. But how about guys? They can treat you so lovely once, after that they will be easily make a 360 degrees change. Then again, they will say smth sweet and lovely to you as if they never hurt you before. Sometimes really wanna ask them wat is the purpose behind of doing this. Wanna get bc the girls? Wanna test the girls again? But if possible, don’t ask cos they will give you those nice sweet words again to fool us around. Sometimes when really think of it, you will feel extremely angry. Hey, guys out there, don’t try to cheat us with those sweet promises. We are not those girls that will be easily fooled by you and trust you again! But anyhow, we are still girls… We will still care for them and going nearer to the trap without knowingly… Guys, if you are reading this, pls don’t play us around. Do respect us and treat us with your true heart…

It’s just my thoughts recently…..

Half a year ago, i was miserable not because of the pressure in my study, neither examinations, nor relationsip pbl that could be the most troublesome issue. I was actually thinking of my next step in future life. Although it is still too early to think of that or to plan (some may think that way), but I believe it’s time to prepare before it was too late.

I was rather sad at that time because i dunno wat should i do next. I felt that i was such a failure. But when i found out that most of the ppl who graduated or going to graduate soon do face this pbl.  Then, i was glad to know that it’s actually part of our life, to come to the T-junction to think, to plan and to make decision before we could move any further. I am glad that I foresee this dilemma and sort it out before i really come to the cross junction. For that, i will hv more time to think about it and plan it out carefully.

I had thought of a lot of ideas that time but still, none of them really give me that feeling of: "ok, I will go for it. This is what i want."

I know that, to make the best choice for myself, I must hv the wisdom. Therefore, chanting is my way to increse the state of my life. When comes the 3 months holidays, i decided to go to my sis house to learn and find out wat i want in life. Today is the last day of my holiday, and guess what? I hv that feeling that i’m looking for. I hv learnt a lot of things which i never know before. I’m blessed… However, a note for myself: "Dun give up easily. What is there for you, is the best arrangement made for you! Everything just go back to the starting point of faith."

Wish all my friends are able to find their ultimate goal in life…